It has helped me learn to love and appreciate my body.
Just when I think "I can't", I do and I do it well.
I can clear my mind and release any anger, hurt, frustrations that I may be feeling.
It is a way of showing myself that I can do anything I set my mind to.
Running has shown my baby brother (who isn't actually a baby but he always will be to me) that he can do anything he sets his mind to.
My family loves to hear about my training adventures and cheering for me.
There's nothing like finishing a run. Regardless of how easy/hard it was, its always an accomplishment.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Less than a week away from my first marathon
How do I feel? In a nutshell, I'm alternating between nervous breakdown mode and being completely and truly excited.
I decided to run a marathon at the end of January 2010. When I signed up I thought to myself that I have TONS of time to train and that I couldn't wait for race day. Time went by very quickly. February sped by and before I knew it, April was upon me. The summer was gone in the blink of an eye and October seemed non-existant. Now, November 14th is days away. Do I wish I had more time to train? Yes and no. On one hand, more time to train would give me time to get in another 20 mile run. Those super long runs are great confidence boosters. On the other hand, it would give me more time to panic and let the self-doubt seep in just a bit more. Its time to rip off the band-aid and get moving!
I'm still trying to decide on a race day outfit. I want to wear my black lululemon shorts but I worry that I'll get too cold. I have black cropped pants that would work for me but what if I get too hot? I've heard that the humidity on this course is brutal. I don't want to keel over half way through due to heating issues. I'm pretty sure I'm going to go with the shorts. I'll freeze my butt off waiting in my corral but oh well. I plan on wearing a short-sleeved tech teee. I think it will be light enough to prevent me from getting too hot but will keep me warm at the start. I'm a weenie about being cold.
I'm as ready as I can be. All I can do at this point is hope for a good race day and good weather. I would love it if there is a slight breeze in the air. As far as goal time, I don't have one. I plan on letting myself enjoy the experience and promised myself that I will be proud and happy no matter what my time is. I'll worry about sub-4 on my next marathon. This one is my first so I don't want to taint the memory with any kind of disappointment or "I wish I had..." nonsense. Don't get me wrong. I like the thrill of finishing a race with a fast time. I just believe that few life experiences are unburdened by expectation. I choose to make this experience an expectation-free one. Who knows? Maybe I'll suprise myself and finish sooner than I think I will.
I wish the best of luck to all those who will be at Rock and Roll San Antonio and those who will be doing any other race this weekend. I hope everyone has a good race day and will look back on it as fondly as I will. I'll post my race review on either Monday or Tuesday.